My Lament Whisper...

All life long I wanted her so badly
Referring myself with “Truly, Deeply, Madly..”
The plight was tacit, the fact was clean
How can a layman get the Queen !?!

I prayed to God, I struggled very hard
But guess wasn’t lucky ‘ to be in her card’.
Was made to realize “ a beggar ain’t a chooser.”
Despite my invocations I ended as a looser.

Everything was so perfect, appearing as magic.
Now the anecdote has ended with the finale so tragic.
It mutilated me badly but left no mark.
A moment ago was colorful and now so dark.

My dreams were all shattered but she didn’t even care
Am I still in the sleep …livin’ the nightmare??
I became spasmodic…she remained fine.
I was the’ cola’ and she preferred only ‘wine’.

I prayed for her joys, she made me cry
Todays are down deep, yesterdays were high!
She treats me strange as if a formality
‘I’m out of her books’ facing the reality.

Those times are gone, those sweets and cakes!!
What remnant is “ME”, giving her constant headaches.
She came as a downpour, and now it’s a drought
I recall when did she, last, gave me a thought !?!

She says everything is fine, there ain’t any change
I have accepted the reality..no animus, no revenge.
She took it so easy… analyzed so less
I tried once too…made my life all mess!!

My love was worthless which she wanted to purge
I wish she remains happy…far away from my dirge.
As for my life, I have nothing else to desire.
The path I am walking on is going to a dire.

*****Ankur