Revelations of a jaded soul....

I’m sitting in the corner in an inexplicable mood
Wondering why the ambience seems so rude?!
Thinking over matters and feeling the pain…
Recollecting those losses in search of a Gain.

Looking upon those evanescent heydays
Questioning weather, ever, does loyalty pays?
Just doing and giving even beyond my extant
And getting in the end what wasn’t even dreamt.

Those genialities I felt, that warmth I received
Was all part of a play! Soon I was deceived.
I took it earnestly ……they had intended levity
It was all for fun…much justified to their brevity.

There smiles were small, their wishes were rife
To let that be granted, I vowed ‘em aim of my life.
Until they endured me, I was there cosset – no doubt!!
Soon someone else enticed them - I was cut right out!!

They associated with me during my blithe and bloom
And now I’m a loner…pale in the shadows of gloom.
My state is perilous like a canoe amidst a raging wave
But finally its going to be peace, akin a rose over the grave.

*****Ankur